My name is Dylan and I'm a depressive
The situation that unfolded over the past few days was nothing short of tragic. I am a guy who has a lot going for him. I am young, I am intelligent, and I am willing to change things for myself. For some reason though, I'm unstable. I just can't get things together. Everything feels like it's slipping away from me. The more I try to grasp hold of life, the more it evades me.
At the night market I went to last night, I spent about 60 rand on food. Fair enough, that was 60 rand for the whole day, and I ate well, but the point I'm getting at is I didn't feel that initial thrill that the night market brings. I didn't feel like everything was magic again. The more time goes on the more it slips away. Everything I needed slips away.
The girl I care for is slipping away. Valentine's day is coming up and I wonder if she'll be there. I'm nervous about everything. I'm nervous about school as well. Which reminds me; I'd better get my lesson plan together before things turn sour and I find myself awake at 2 am. These long nights are maybe part of the reason I don't feel anything.
Sometimes I feel sick of it all and I want to go home. I don't see a place for myself and I wish to give up. The days of reading books at home and losing myself in reverie haven't found me here. I've been lost in translation in Thailand.
At the night market I went to last night, I spent about 60 rand on food. Fair enough, that was 60 rand for the whole day, and I ate well, but the point I'm getting at is I didn't feel that initial thrill that the night market brings. I didn't feel like everything was magic again. The more time goes on the more it slips away. Everything I needed slips away.
The girl I care for is slipping away. Valentine's day is coming up and I wonder if she'll be there. I'm nervous about everything. I'm nervous about school as well. Which reminds me; I'd better get my lesson plan together before things turn sour and I find myself awake at 2 am. These long nights are maybe part of the reason I don't feel anything.
Sometimes I feel sick of it all and I want to go home. I don't see a place for myself and I wish to give up. The days of reading books at home and losing myself in reverie haven't found me here. I've been lost in translation in Thailand.
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