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Scrambled cities: If you're not gonna do the work(on your soul), then you might as well work til you die

 There are two tiers in normal life. Those who are survive and those who thrive.  But nothing is a mistake in life: Nothing comes by chance. You have to prepare for it.  If you thought life was about making money and beating out the Jones's, you've lost already.  Life is: Desire for connection. All unhealthy competition is isolating. We live in an isolated-enough world already. This connection comes from a surprising place: Self-acceptance. A lot of us need to go back to the classroom. A lot of us need to take a silent breather and check in with what we need. This takes serious work. It's the real work. It relies on respect for others and self-respect.  A lot of people in the self-help community try to push the self aside: Manning up is the only side of it they see. But there are certain non-negotiables in this life. Certain things we can't cheat ourselves out of. We are not a piece of meat being acted on.    However, this is where God comes in. Some o...
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I am not a frat boy. 30 days in and I feel hollower than before.



YES

 So I'm back in Thailand after a hiatus in South Africa to help my mother with her lawn service after she contracted covid.


 This time I took my mom on holiday. That's not as generous as it sounds though, trust me. I am not paying... I am still the loser who has been fratting since 8 and is now 36 with only a bachelor's degree to his name. And I'm scrounging for work in Thailand of all places.

Aaand I haven't lost any of the ol' pearl jam since I embarked on this trip. A month ago. Fratting was an easy way out for me but now that I'm not doing it, I feel a total and utter loser. I relied on that for my ego boost. A bit like a negative smoothie. It takes away your power. Now I just have literature and I am reading Homer's Odyssey by the way, in case you're interested 

Last night admittedly, I felt on top of the world but this morning I am just drained. I guess it's going to get better and better the more I stay on track. Those positive moments I mean? What's your experience? Do they become more frequent as you go on? Because I feel so low right now. And old... 36 is after all ancient. 

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