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Shattered hearts club

Trauma sufferers know the desperation.  The feeling of utter death that repeats.  It can come out in back pain, in heart palpitations.  It can drive them to do stupid things that ruin them.  And ruins the trust with others. When they could least afford. Trauma sufferers know the numbness that ensues When, like a cloying baby, they reach out to others On a bus that's 200,000 times the size of them And they approach someone with sadness in their eyes And they get a massive quaking instead of the love That they sought. And they're frightening to others. And they're frightened of others. And the whole thing repeats And repeats.  And repeats.

For when you're lost and confused

Being isolated is a killer.

See what I did there? Being something a choice. . .

Calling it something outside of us is not.


Luckily I'm here to tell you about an experience I once had where I materialized three sofa-sitting rastas.

They just reclined on those sofas and told me "Hey chill yo'self Brundage." And their serious expression was one of real concern for me. And their concern was somehow humorous. 

Let me tell you something.

Making up characters will fill the void.

There is always someone you can write about. 

A reassuring voice from the past.

A mate who comforted you when all seemed lost.

Even today I was able to bring my writing into the real world. 

I specialize in deep convos with girls I have a soul love for.

And she spoke to me.

The thing is. . . 

She normally never speaks to me.

Not only once did she write back but many times through the day.

And what's more; she got me on such a high that I was actually at odds trying to keep the emotions going that she gave me.

She's dating someone else now...

But the bond we have is real.

I'm telling you man. She saw me.

Maybe it's one of those bonds where you never meet. 

But whether that affects your capacity to connect to other humans or not doesn't really matter.

Life is not a numbers game.

Only the ones who matter, matter.

You know what I mean when you really dig down into it.

Their souls and memories ring on for eternity.

And we build legends around these people in our lives.

And those legends become our warm-hearted purpose. . .

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